Wednesday, July 11, 2007

The Alchemist...

For past couple of days i have been thinking that i need to put the lines of my favourite book in my blog hence following are some of these lines
  • Its the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.
  • when some one sees the same people every day, they wind up becoming a part of that person's life. and then they want the person to change . if some one isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own.
  • worlds greatest lie: at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. that's the world's greatest lie.
  • The soul of the world is nourished by people's happiness. And also by unhappiness, envy and jealousy. to realize one's destiny is a person's only real obligation.
  • when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.
  • In the long run, what people think about Shepard's and bakers becomes more important for them than their own destinies.
  • people learn early in their lives what is their reason for being. maybe that's why they give up on it so early too.
  • If you start out by promising what you don't even have yet you'll lose your desire to work towards getting it.
  • everything in life has its price.
  • when each day is same as the next, its because people fail to recognize the good things that happens in their lives everyday that the sun rises.
  • I'm like everyone else- i see the world in terms of what i would like to see happen, not what actually does.
  • it was as if the world had fallen silent because the boys soul had.
  • we have to take advantage when luck is on our side, and do as much to help it as it's doing to help us.
  • i'm afraid that if my dream is realized, i'll have no reason to go on living.
  • making a decision is only the beginning of things. when someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had dreamed of when he first made the decision.
  • the closer one gets to realizing his destiny the more that destiny becomes his true reason for being.
  • intuition is really sudden immersion of soul into the universe current of life, where the histories of all people are connected, and we are able to know everything, because its all written there.
  • people need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want.
  • if you can concentrate always on present you'll be a happy man.
  • eachday in itself brings with it an eternity.
  • life attracts life
  • love never keeps a man from persuing his destiny. if he abandons that persuit its because it wasn't true love.
  • one is loved becauseone is loved. no reason is needed for loving.
  • if what one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil. and one can always come back. if what you had found was only a moment of light, like the explosion you would find nothing on your return.
  • Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams.
  • There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.
  • When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too
  • “This is for you,” he said, holding one of the parts out to the monk. “It’s for your generosity ot th epilgrims.”“But this payment goes well beyond my generosity,” the monk responded.“Don’t say that again. Life might be listening, and give you less next time.”

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Monday, July 09, 2007

Loner Lunatic


Sunday, July 08, 2007

Crumbling.....

crumbling... everything seems to be crumbling... and the surprising bit is that neither that crumbling is happening to me nor i am the cause of the crumbling.... around me all the people i adore seem to be fighting their demons....demons if the form of the most handome humans... men and women..... demons in the form of ambitions.... demons in the form of money.... demons in the form of relationships..... demons in the form of the air they breath... the food they eat.... the water the drink.... the smile which the act....the tears which they shed.... the words they speak... demons all of them are demons.... the darkness which is engulfing them is so dark and so suffocating that now they are at the verge of pouring kerosene on themselves and lighting them selves up with a match just for a little light...but they have to realize that "this too shall pass" and afterwards only the scars will be left.... these scars instead of giving them a horrible look would be the cause of admiration and respect by others... but that would only happen if they themselves keep on beliving in themselves...
we keep on wishing and hoping that we would also be able to do what our icons our ideals did.... we keep on thinking that the grass is greener on the other side of the fence.... but what we forget is that what we are seeing is probably only the calm surface of a raging see below... have you everseen the pictures of beautiful lush green forests... dont you yearn to go and see them... just to breath that fresh air.... but the real picture is so different that we are stunned... humid heat.... leeches... pythons... tarentulas... tigers ... centipides... scorpions... all the things which are difficult to handle are there... also everyone knows that there is some one who admire them... who want to be in their shoes just like they way we want to be in some one elses shoes... but we know how difficultly we got what we got... so instead of wishing to be in someone elses shoes we have to understand that everything comes with a price... if you are ready to pay good enough... but what if you pay more then what that thing is really worth...
then there is a thing called love... what love... love is something which is supposed to make you light as air... under its effect one smiles... not feel miserable... because that thing would be so bad in the longer run... what if that love causes you even bigger pain... its more of an addictaion... something you want to get rid of but you cant get rid off because you feel that you would die without it... you feel that tghe flowers will lose their colour... the birds will stop singing... but if things dont stop because some one dies then love is just a feeling... a beautiful feeling but then again... just a feeling.... i know how difficult it is for me to quit smoking... i dont even know for how long but i did it because that was hurting me inside... so if anything which hurts you inside is not worth keeping or having or nurturing... also if you shun something it comes back to you again and again... and this feeling that now that thing is coming for you instead of you running after it is a great feeling... i know i might sound i dont know weired but that is how the world runs... do you best... but DO NOT LET ANYTHING HURT YOU.. nothing has that right to do so... if you are not hurting anyone why should anyone dare to hurt you...
with ambitions too... its a grand thing... but when the balance is lost then it becomes negative... one does achieve what one really wants... and i am talking from experience... but one must know what one is desiring for... one must know if the price which is being paid is worth paying.... one must think over whether that feeling is what we are looking for....just because some one tells you that u have to do it does not mean that one has to do something... we are humans for God sake... we are given brains to think with... our scenarios... histories... memories...secrets.... demons are all different we have to think how we have to go about the life which is infront of us... so crumble you all but remember that this is not the end... this will make you all strong... and this will also vanish like the night vanishes with the approch of sun... and the sun shall rise....
Lunatic Ramblings

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

The Bloody Facewash...

So... the face wash... the cursed cursed cursed face wash which instead of giving you a glow a shine on face gives you such a lethargic irritated angry expression that one is surprised why these bloody face wash companies or face wash users market it so much...
well unlike other people i had the tendency to slip and get entagled in the web of it.still remember that i was 9 and enters this gorgeous creature in my life that i was shocked... i mean i was the kind of kid who thought that the only thing in my life would be my pathetic excuse of a pup named speedy... enid blytons and the ultimate desire to eat as much food as possibly i could... those were the times when i had recently came back and everyone was "Off kitna piyara bacha hai" bilkul tum pey gia hai... the times when all the good in me was due to some one and all the faults in me were genetic... lol... come to think of it its still the same... any way in my relitively peaceful life enters a facewash... now imagine this face wash some 12 years senior to me... aspiring to be an artist... and occassionally would throw a smile my way which would make me feel that "mein nao sal ka hoon too kia howa mein sada us ka khial rakhon ga" and the lamest of all " mein us ki har khawaish pori karaon ga" that was sooooooooooooooo lame i mean just writing it down make me feel that why the hell would i fulfill her every deam... i mean why... i had to litterally beg my parents... trick my dada... lie to my nini that i got great grades in order to get a 50 ka note from where the hell i would fullfill her wishes... then the ultamate tragedy struck, face wash thought that it should increase its range and another more masculin version of it came and they had these tiny shitty saches who they lovingly told that " jab tum barey ho gey na to tum bilkul umer bhaia ki tarha hona"or something of the same caliber...
so after that i decided that no more face washes for me... and life would have kept on going smothly.. i mean flunking in exams... smoking... being the cool dude of class (surprisng aint it)... life was good... i was 15 happy and single... enters another bloody face wash... luckily and thankfully of my age... things started we chatted, we liked, we dreamt, we stuck togather for
four years and then...... the best thing happened... we grew up... we started feeling tied down... we hormons settled (didnt do anything which i cant tell to my mum... and yes i cant tell her that)... we took a time off which turned to be a way out.... and we finished ... so another face wash came... gave this initial intense pleasure which i never ever felt before by just her presence... her particular perfume smell... her completely makeupless face which use to radiate this particular glow... those beautiful beautiful eyes... and a tongue which could be so sharp that it could cut u in hafe within a nanosecond but the cutting was done so beautifully that that one nanosecond was enough for an eternity... those silent nodes and those complete rejections with those long lashed eyes... but it ended and it ended when we both knew that the the bottle is emplty and a new face wash is required.... i went my way... the face wash was thrown in bin thinking that another one would take its place..... but fortunately the company which manufatured that particular face wash got bankrupt... also due to lack of any desire never really felt like getting meself another ones of those... so now i have completely stopped using these bloody facewashes and i am sticking to a bar of soap.... at least when you wash it of it dosent keep on sticking to your face as if a bird shat on you... ok ok a bird who ate something sweet hence its sweet smelling sticky goey thing on your face all day long... and when the effects starts to be less nausiating we wake up in the morning and again put the stupid face wash all over our face and feel that that would be sufficient enough for us... ha as if....then there are few of us who litteraily have facewashes in their bags... these are the future heroine sniffers who get their highes just by sniffing the bottle.. even though they are told that the particular face wash which they are using or rather sniffing can cause serious skin diseases they are happy with it and are like... so what... it smeeeeeeeeeellllllllllllssssssssss sooooooooooooo niccccccccccccceeeeeee.... and then they are those who have tried a lot of face washes but everytime they have used it they realize that probably that face wash was not the right one which goes with their skin... then they switch to a more expensive face wash... but that measly bottle finishes on 15th of the month... your parents adament not to increase or give u an advance on your pocketmoney... the salary which you got also spent in the first five days of you getting it.... hence all the sources of the face wash being surely emptied one says most sadly "khuda hafiz"(in my case i was more then happy to spit on the pathetic bottle for scarring me) to the empty bottle... keeps it on ones shelf for few months but when a lot of dust settles on it then throwing it also ends the facewash of that sort... but as we dont know there is one face wash for everysingle skin type... so till the time one dosent find the most appropriate facewas one should not get hooked on to it.... for me till that time so soaps zinda bad... soap pianda bad.
Lunatic Ramblings

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Haze Of Desire...

the desire for everything has come to such a peak that its unbearable.... overwhelming...
i feel alive... i feel human again.... after avery long time i feel as if i am as light as air.... the guilt which use to strangle my heart has evaporated.... i want to do things because now i want too not because i have too. this desire to love fierecly... to laugh carelessly.... to run unstopabbly... to sleep peacefully... to cry uninhabbitidly...to shout loudly.... all of these desire have reached an apex and i am high on them.... and i am happy some how .... i know that what ever shit i am going through will be over... and i know that the shit through which joora, taneez, rabbaj, niassuh are going through will be over too... this too shall pass...just like the tortourus classes with sir rauf... at least we have eachother... for how long no one knows... but why bother about whats to come in future while we can savour every moment, every memory, every laughter, every tear, every word with eachother.... i like the following poem...hence i am puting it in....
H earts in harmony anticipate
A nswers well before a question’s put.
Z ones dark freed for light play magic flute
E mpathy inspires, all senses sate.
O pen door, therefore, unlocks each gate -
F inds minds aligned, joy unconfined takes root
D efying Time as inner ear, acute,
E xtends beyond the patterned web of Fate.
S urrender self, cast out cares fast, relate.
I ntuitively, rune-tune absolute
R esponds with trust all envy must confute, -
E nchantment shared which never need abate.
N one seeks sense or defense when hearts sincere,
OW n not but share, with motives crystal clear.

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