21st April 2015

Ok since i got i phone, blogging has become so much more conveniant... And to be very frank i am kinda enjoying this... Any way at the airport as i write this on my way to Colombo and well was feeling extreamly grateful to Allah. Its been sometime now that i have realized that what ever happens to me is purly my own asking... It might not happen there and then but it does happen... I asked for a career which would be global role, lots of travelling, good people to work with and Allhamdullilah its happening ... Although it does get tiring and for past two months i am living out of suitcase... But so far so good...anyway matters of heart are not being sorted ... Still obsessive still feel that being my ownself would reault in having a relationship which would be stronger... At least it would be honest...buuuut thats not the case...u become fake u fullfil the need to tarnish the beauty of silence by spoken words and the otherside is happy...respect, affection, care all result in being treated like a used condom...not a great feeling waisey

21st April 2015

19 april 2015

Ok...as much as i am trying not to make this a whinny pit...this is exactly what this is becoming... Just got back in karachi... And damn it i miss amma... And lahore... 

16 april 15

Feeling a biit old.. Bit battered... Achey... But happy 

4 april 2015

Damn it.... It still hurts... I am becoming the person; the sort who always seemed exciting... But now that i am that person i really dont think its that exciting....missing and really really tempted... Shall not succumb 

Today... Highhhhh

Life is fucked up.... Bought ammas bed ... Dont know how i am going to pay fir it...but hell its interwood 

3 April 2015.

Got me self a new I phone... It's a constant run for bigger better... Realised I am obsessive and have also realised that karma is a bitch... The adventures of a loony Lahori continues in big ole Karachi... Just feel that everything is so precariously on the edge... One wrong move and it all comes tumbling down... Let's hope not cause I literally have nothing left to fall back too. I just can't fail...beautiful beautiful night... Full moon and I can see lights twinkling across the ocean... Still ache