frustration part 2

i always thought that as i would grow up things would be more easier to handle. thigs would be easier to manage or plain simply they would start to make sense. but now that i am old they sem to become more and more complex. i have completely lost track of what is right and what is wrong. so many people are around me but all i can see is a blur of grey. feelings, smiles, tars nothing affects me now. nothing and i dont know whether i like it or i dont. friends who i used to enjoy stting with talking with all seem to be made out of clay. i dont find any comfort in their company. my tounge seems to be ripped out of my head. i dont taste anything cant talk anything . i smile but so do the statues in the park. and the worst bit is that i am not even sad or depressed. nor i am confusedbut nothing around me is making sense. i always used to think that people are like water. the ones which are like rain drops bring comort to those who have been scorched by the hardships which the world burns them with. then there are people who are likea river. fast flowing always moving from one place to another those who have had a lot of experiences and are always ready for more. then there are tose who are like a lake. these are the beautiful people. unblemished by any filth. thease are the ones who beautify anything with their presence. to balance these lakes there are some which are like stagnant pools. these are the ones which are filled with muck and filth. they only exist just to make things difficult. hold others down. suffocate them. andthen there are those which are like sea. deep. they have seen it all. they have beenn a raindrop, the river, the lake and the stanant pool. they know the limitations and potentials of other waer bodies because they have been one or another at on point of time.

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frustration

i think i am going mad or probbably i have been mad all my life its just that i have realized now.
what in the gods name is happening to this world. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feal like shouting screaming biting abusing fighting kicking and mokking and god knows what........... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its so stupid. why the hell cant people be straight forward and honest. either its one of your ediotic friends who is offened at you about which you have no idea.. or its some stupid girl who is ruiing her life because she likes you.... or its some stupid relative who just because you are doing better then there moronic kid is tryin to find an weakness of yours to exploit...why dont these people have the balls to come and say it to your face.. i mean if i am honest with them then they should be too... this is so stupid. fucking artificial peple with there fake smiles and there venemous hearts... and then why in the gods name one has to lose the people who one is actually comfortable with. either that ediot who u like is fromesome other fucking country or that stupid persons time is up and that ediot has to go and die.. i feel like as if my soul is rotting away...shewwwwwwwwwwww

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