The night of 1st ramzan 2015

Why do i have a feeling that this time i have reached th point of no return.... This time i will change and would not be able to recover... I dont even have the energy to blame anyone... I am truly incapable of loving and to be loved...how can i keep telling myself that i am perfect when i am cracked, chipped and broken... I am flawed...    Lunatic ramblings