21st April 2015

Ok since i got i phone, blogging has become so much more conveniant... And to be very frank i am kinda enjoying this... Any way at the airport as i write this on my way to Colombo and well was feeling extreamly grateful to Allah. Its been sometime now that i have realized that what ever happens to me is purly my own asking... It might not happen there and then but it does happen... I asked for a career which would be global role, lots of travelling, good people to work with and Allhamdullilah its happening ... Although it does get tiring and for past two months i am living out of suitcase... But so far so good...anyway matters of heart are not being sorted ... Still obsessive still feel that being my ownself would reault in having a relationship which would be stronger... At least it would be honest...buuuut thats not the case...u become fake u fullfil the need to tarnish the beauty of silence by spoken words and the otherside is happy...respect, affection, care all result in being treated like a used condom...not a great feeling waisey