but

Emotions in turmoil...brain completely screwed... tired of fighting the demons and when they win consolidating myself that they also need something to be hopefull about... thankful for everything... but some how more i get emptier i feel... who am i so bothered about??? what next?? for the world... got the big grin i place and persona mastered... got the hugs...give the hugs... they are just not enough anymore... not the hormones speaking cause bin there done that and well definately not a 16 yr old anymore... walkin in the rain besides the canal... telling to the ducks that i can and i will... no doubts about that... but is that it??? the path is laid out... and i know that i am there on it... but...
baggage... never got the chance to have any...lol... forgotten most of what happened in past...people...places... smells...feelings... none are there... everytime i need to make an effort to describe them...but


Lunatic ramblings