frustration part 2

i always thought that as i would grow up things would be more easier to handle. thigs would be easier to manage or plain simply they would start to make sense. but now that i am old they sem to become more and more complex. i have completely lost track of what is right and what is wrong. so many people are around me but all i can see is a blur of grey. feelings, smiles, tars nothing affects me now. nothing and i dont know whether i like it or i dont. friends who i used to enjoy stting with talking with all seem to be made out of clay. i dont find any comfort in their company. my tounge seems to be ripped out of my head. i dont taste anything cant talk anything . i smile but so do the statues in the park. and the worst bit is that i am not even sad or depressed. nor i am confusedbut nothing around me is making sense. i always used to think that people are like water. the ones which are like rain drops bring comort to those who have been scorched by the hardships which the world burns them with. then there are people who are likea river. fast flowing always moving from one place to another those who have had a lot of experiences and are always ready for more. then there are tose who are like a lake. these are the beautiful people. unblemished by any filth. thease are the ones who beautify anything with their presence. to balance these lakes there are some which are like stagnant pools. these are the ones which are filled with muck and filth. they only exist just to make things difficult. hold others down. suffocate them. andthen there are those which are like sea. deep. they have seen it all. they have beenn a raindrop, the river, the lake and the stanant pool. they know the limitations and potentials of other waer bodies because they have been one or another at on point of time.

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