Crumbling.....

crumbling... everything seems to be crumbling... and the surprising bit is that neither that crumbling is happening to me nor i am the cause of the crumbling.... around me all the people i adore seem to be fighting their demons....demons if the form of the most handome humans... men and women..... demons in the form of ambitions.... demons in the form of money.... demons in the form of relationships..... demons in the form of the air they breath... the food they eat.... the water the drink.... the smile which the act....the tears which they shed.... the words they speak... demons all of them are demons.... the darkness which is engulfing them is so dark and so suffocating that now they are at the verge of pouring kerosene on themselves and lighting them selves up with a match just for a little light...but they have to realize that "this too shall pass" and afterwards only the scars will be left.... these scars instead of giving them a horrible look would be the cause of admiration and respect by others... but that would only happen if they themselves keep on beliving in themselves...

we keep on wishing and hoping that we would also be able to do what our icons our ideals did.... we keep on thinking that the grass is greener on the other side of the fence.... but what we forget is that what we are seeing is probably only the calm surface of a raging see below... have you everseen the pictures of beautiful lush green forests... dont you yearn to go and see them... just to breath that fresh air.... but the real picture is so different that we are stunned... humid heat.... leeches... pythons... tarentulas... tigers ... centipides... scorpions... all the things which are difficult to handle are there... also everyone knows that there is some one who admire them... who want to be in their shoes just like they way we want to be in some one elses shoes... but we know how difficultly we got what we got... so instead of wishing to be in someone elses shoes we have to understand that everything comes with a price... if you are ready to pay good enough... but what if you pay more then what that thing is really worth...

then there is a thing called love... what love... love is something which is supposed to make you light as air... under its effect one smiles... not feel miserable... because that thing would be so bad in the longer run... what if that love causes you even bigger pain... its more of an addictaion... something you want to get rid of but you cant get rid off because you feel that you would die without it... you feel that tghe flowers will lose their colour... the birds will stop singing... but if things dont stop because some one dies then love is just a feeling... a beautiful feeling but then again... just a feeling.... i know how difficult it is for me to quit smoking... i dont even know for how long but i did it because that was hurting me inside... so if anything which hurts you inside is not worth keeping or having or nurturing... also if you shun something it comes back to you again and again... and this feeling that now that thing is coming for you instead of you running after it is a great feeling... i know i might sound i dont know weired but that is how the world runs... do you best... but DO NOT LET ANYTHING HURT YOU.. nothing has that right to do so... if you are not hurting anyone why should anyone dare to hurt you...

with ambitions too... its a grand thing... but when the balance is lost then it becomes negative... one does achieve what one really wants... and i am talking from experience... but one must know what one is desiring for... one must know if the price which is being paid is worth paying.... one must think over whether that feeling is what we are looking for....just because some one tells you that u have to do it does not mean that one has to do something... we are humans for God sake... we are given brains to think with... our scenarios... histories... memories...secrets.... demons are all different we have to think how we have to go about the life which is infront of us... so crumble you all but remember that this is not the end... this will make you all strong... and this will also vanish like the night vanishes with the approch of sun... and the sun shall rise....

Lunatic Ramblings