Back Again

at last i am in... never thought that i will be able to get back in but thanks to joora and taneez i am in. any way...
for past couple of days so many thoughts so many things so many words have been coming to me and now that i have actually sat down to write them i am suddenly all blank... so much has happened since last i came here... made friends... got close to few people.... lost friends some due to because i could see that instead of bringing satisfaction we were just bringing misery by just our presence... been an eventful sort of a year.... things have changed ... the death which was always present has made it self more visable now... and the thing is its not that dark and gloomy anymore... this might sound really sucidal which trust me i am not but the thing is that what is so wrong with death... dying... dead... i mean dosent everything perish.... we always feel when something which our apparent senses could understand dies.. it could be a really beautiful touch me not plant, or it could be a delicate crystal, or it could be a really colourful bird... or human being...our senses are suddenly in a turmoil... the absence of that particular smell, the absence of that particul colour, the absence of that particular touch is missed but what abt the death of those things which we cannot explain from our these senses... i mean what abt the gradual death of love, what abt the death of intense hate, what abt the death of yearning feeling of being with someone. all these things do dye and sometimes this death brings a sense of freedom a sense of relife a sense of space... so that is how death has made itself more visable. and its not that bad...
anyway i am really happy to be back here... there will be more post definatelly from now on wards... (hopefully) :)

Lunatic Ramblings